#4: The Best and the Worst
I have always felt extreme opposites about myself, at the same time. I feel like I’m the best, and I feel like I’m the worst all at the same time. In high school, I thought I would either be rich or be dead in the gutter via suicide. This seems really crazy, but it’s how I feel at all times. With my writing half the time I think, I am the next big thing - someone who defines a generation. The other time, I think to myself, why am I doing this? What’s the point? I feel like I’m the only person who feels this way. Most people either think highly of themselves, are indifferent, or get down on themselves. Whichever they think, it’s usually a constant. Sometimes even in just a few hours, I’m all over the place with my self esteem. I should work a better job. Just kidding... I’m the worst. I’m lucky anyone would be dumb enough to hire me. This makes me sound like I’m bipolar.. I don’t think I am, but I suppose it is in the realm of possibility, as I have struggled with mental health for years. I’m not always cocky, but I’m not always humble either. I’m just Austin…
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